Six years ago, at 5:04am, Pascaline Josette was born at 10.1 lbs. and 20 inches long.

It doesn’t feel like six years has gone by.

I asked Pascaline what she wanted to do for her birthday this year; what type of party, what friends she wanted to invite, afterall, this year she gets to invite six friends for being six. She looked at me and said, “I don’t think I want a party this year. I just want to have tea at Queen Mary’s with you, grammie and gigi-ma (great grandma). And for my birthday dinner, I want it to be the four of us; you, me, dad and Blaze eating breakfast for dinner.”

Of course I did what every mom does–went through the roller coaster of emotions. Is she okay? Is she lonely and not making friends at school? Have I been working too much? Are we not having enough family time? Don’t six year olds want parties and lots of presents? (anyone relate? )

Her birthday wish for presents was new cowgirl boots and to graduate into a booster seat. “Really?” I asked.

I decided to let it go, and believe this is what Pascaline wanted. I underestimated Pascaline. Of course this is what she wanted!

She picked out my outfit for our tea party from my necklace to skirt to shoes (even tried to tell me what underwear to wear!). Her dress, shoes and white gloves were all layed out. She had us each take a purse, and she sent invitations to my mom and grandma asking them to where whatever they’d like, but to make sure it’s “geourgous“. I started to realize she wasn’t depressed at all, she actually had quite a clear vision of what this tea party was going to look like.

Over the last six years, Pascaline has changed so much. But one thing that is unchanging, her ability to completely surprise me when I least expect it. My life is so rich because of this little one!

Happy Birthday sweetie! love, mama