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You have all been so patient and supportive as I’ve tweeted the unfolding developments of the SOAR! Scholarship.  Even now, as I write this blog, a handful of people from SmugMug, Chopping Block, Taco Lamp, and more, are racing the clock with us to bring you SOAR! today.   A few of them have been up ALL NIGHT!  Our goal is to go live with the video, website and all the details by 4pm PST (maybe sooner).  Between SOAR! and our new website and blog, I feel like we are birthing triplets! 

 

Stay tuned.  It’s going to get really good!  Think “Running on Empty Contest” magnified a 100x’s!  For up to the minute updates, search for #SOAR on Twitter. 

 

In the meantime, while we are finalizing details, go over to my dear friend, Kari Hale’s new blog opening.   Mamabloo went live today!  Her blog is going to be an awesome one to follow!  I’ve been waiting for Kari to have a blog my whole life!  You will LOVE her!

 

Check back later this afternoon and come SOAR! with me.  This is a scholarship that will change the lives of three women!  You may be one of those women!   

 

p.s. Wait! What else happens today? The two Photo Contests end!  Have you submitted your photo entries yet? Remember to submit your Photo Contest entries today!  We’ve got two photo contests going on right now that you don’t want to miss! I’m loving the submissions!  To read the details on what our Photo Contest Themes are CLICK HERE!

 

p.s.s. The bugs are worked out of our Newsletter box on the right side!  Sign up today, and you will be entered in a drawing for my favorite Sony DSLR camera!

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We have a winner to announce! As many of you know, we ask a handful of women to be the judges for our Running on Empty contest. A number of these women are also former winners. We enlist their help because there is no way Brian and I could ever choose. And even with this contest, every woman emailed a message of struggle on picking one winner. Every story was amazing. Every woman nominated deserves to be recognized. So again, I want to thank all the beautiful women who were entered or entered themselves. I am amazed at your strength and love. Thank you for sharing your life with us here. Thank you for being so strong and not giving up. You inspire me more than words can say.

The votes were collected, and we have a single winner. The winner for the November Seattle CONFIDENCE Workshop is Natalie Teabo! Natalie, Brian and I want to welcome you this weekend to the Seattle CONFIDENCE workshop. Your story brought tears to my eyes, and I would love the honor of pouring into your creative spirit this weekend. I know this is cutting it close for you to make arrangements. We hope all the logistics can work for you. Can you email Genie (genie@merakoh.com) by tomorrow at 12 noon to confirm your coming? If it doesn’t work for you, we have beautiful Runner Ups. Thanks Natalie, and I hope we get to meet in person this weekend!

For those of you who missed Natalie’s story, here it is from her own words;

I am going out on a limb here and nominating myself. I feel bashful about doing this. However I have nothing to loose except an amazing weekend finding confidence!! I giggle when I see the topic running on empty. I find myself there so often. I am on a different path of life that I ever imagined. Three years ago I birthed my third son Hudson Sawyer he was a tender soul and the sweetest thing you ever have seen. Hudson came into the world with many challenges and our lives had change drastically. We spent three months watching him fight for life, surgery after surgery of praying hard for healing and preparation for a child that would need care for probably his whole life. Hudson died in our arms at Seattle Children’s, he never made it home to his own crib. We held him and he past away right there in my arms, something that I would not wish on my worst enemy. Heartache and suffering that I have never felt I didn’t know a heart could hurt,literally hurt!

Our dream of having more kids did not die with Hudson however my husband and I were freaked out of having another child die and so we began praying about option number 2 adoption. Amazingly a year later almost to date a sweet little girl was placed in our arms in Ethiopia she became a healing for us (nothing can replace Hudson)but a new vision was given to us. If we have lost a child, perhaps we can be the answer to moms praying that God would help them keep theirs alive. We are now waiting on two more kids from Ghana, West Africa. I picked up a friends camera while working in South Africa at an HIV home this past December and I fell in love! I have found life through the lens. My hubby bought me a Nikon D90 for mothers day and I decided If I love it this much I should begin to take picture for profit or at least to help with our adoption expense. A friend introduced me to your blog and I saw your weekend, however with our adoption cost I knew I can never go. Then today like a beam of light your post about winning a spot. As silly as I feel nominating myself. I would be tickled and honored to join you. I just thought I would give it a try!

Natalie, I really hope we get to meet you! You are an amazing woman and mother.

Also, a BIG THANK YOU to all the beautiful babies that have flooded, literally FLOODED, my Inbox! My Inbox has never looked so cute and squeezable! Wow, the Northwest has some serious sweetness going on! We will be in touch with you by the end of the week!

xoxoxo,

Me Ra

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TWO NEW Photo Contests, TWO WAYS to WIN! Deadline is December 1st! To enter and WIN, read the details HERE !

Our Refuse to Say Cheese DVD series are now AWARD WINNING! Read the press release HERE ! The DVDs were also recently featured on FOX News as a TOP GIFT recommendation for the holidays! Refuse to Say Cheese and , click either title!

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Noah Biorkman‘s mom posted this on Noah care page. I thought you’d love knowing what a difference your cards and prayers meant. Thank YOU for giving…so quickly…without reservation. Love you all.

Come back at 2pm for a special announcement that you and your baby may get to participate in! (Yep, TWO posts today! :) ) Have a Happy Monday!

p.s Running on Empty winner will be announced tomorrow!

Hello Everyone!

What a week! Scott and I have had a hard time wrapping our brain around how much support and compassion we have received from people all around the world!!! Noah was the 17th most googled topic on Thursday and 12th on Friday!! Unbelievable!!!!!!!

Thank you to everyone for the support! Thank you to everyone that listened to my requests for peace. Thank you to Mindy for setting up security for my front door today!! Thank you to the South Lyon Police, Fire, and Post Office for the help and support over the past week. Today was the first day that I could relax. We had a person sitting out front guarding the door. My family and I didn’t have to worry about whether the person walking up was going to knock or ring the doorbell. Yes, I do have a sign on the door.

I just wanted to note something interesting. Last Saturday, I posted a little note on this carepage – it said that we were celebrating Christmas this week. If you would like to send Noah a card, send me an email and I will give you my address!! Our friends and family have repeatedly asked us for something to do to help. Asking for a Christmas card was something simple that many people could do. They posted it on Facebook and BAMMMMM!!!!!!! Next thing I know, we are receiving thousands of cards and packages. Tuesday – 64, Wednesday – 416, Thursday – 2,600, Friday – 5,100 and Saturday – ??????? At least 10,000. Yes, you read that right – at least 10,000.

We are opening and reading each and every card. This is taking some time. It is just humbling, shocking, incredible, astounding… the outpouring of love for one sick little boy.

Friday night, Noah loved meeting Santa. He wasn’t so sure about the fire truck or Santa coming on the fire truck. We waved from the balcony. Noah feels safe in my bedroom. That’s where he spends most of his time. He wouldn’t come out of the bedroom so Santa went in. He sat on the floor and opened presents with Noah, Scott, and I. Then I went out to make sure everyone was doing well and Santa sat right next to Noah. Noah wrapped his arms around Santa’s neck and wouldn’t let go.

The smile on his face was worth it. He smiled from ear to ear.

Saturday, Noah loved opening presents and let me tell you – there isn’t a shortage of them!! We had a crew at the house and he would pick which person he wanted to play with and that person went into the bedroom and played. When he had enough, he would sleep. We decided to have Santa come on Friday for two reasons. 1.) Santa needed to have time to get back to the North Pole. 2.) Noah needed a day of rest between the big events.

Today was a very merry Christmas! Noah, my mom, and I woke to a Christmas tree in our front yard, fully decorated with wrapped presents underneath. Noah thought that was the coolest thing. Again – the smile said it all. He spent most of the day in my bedroom. No shocker there! He was stingy with his happy face today. He slept quite a bit and he seems to be hurting again.

Noah is having pain in the left elbow and upper body. This is all new pain. However, he’s stubborn as a mule and won’t let me give him any IV pain meds. We keep increasing his Methadone which we did on Friday. That hasn’t seemed to help much. You can see the difference in him. You can see him slowing down. You can see him in pain and just plain getting tired. He’s just at that point.

No matter how hard this is or how painful it is, Scott, my family, and I can say one thing – Noah had Christmas today. And for that, I am grateful.

Merry Christmas Everyone! The world helped make it special for Noah, my family, Scott, and myself. I can guarantee one thing – This week was a week that none of us will ever forget.

Thanks

(p.s. Thanks Maureen for this beautiful update!)

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After reading your heartfelt comments and emails from yesterday’s post, I can’t think of a better time to start our Running On Empty Contest for the November Seattle CONFIDENCE Photography Workshop.

CONFIDENCE is happening on the weekend of November 14th and 15th (not this weekend but the NEXT!). The November CONFIDENCE Workshop sold out in less than 24 hrs of being released online. But we have one spot reserved for a special woman. Will you help us find this special woman? (Are you new to this contest? If so, read below the photo.)

The November CONFIDENCE women have already started emailing each other their stories, why they are coming, what they hope to get out of the weekend, their fears, insecurities and enthusiasm. Brian and I are moved every time we hold these workshops. Whether these women live in Washington DC, Chicago, San Diego, Seattle or Minneapolis, they are excited and ready to take their creativity and photography skills to the next level. (Yes, they are nervous before the workshop, but they never let that nervousness stand in their way. And their courage brings beautiful results.)

Do you know a mom who needs this kind of group and weekend getaway? Do you know a mom Running on Empty? If so, nominate her today. Let’s turn her day around and let her know we are routing for her!

If you know a MOM who is;

A. Running on Empty

B. Lives near Seattle/Tacoma, or has mileage to spend, or lives by the seat of her pants and would book a plane ticket last minute

C. Can arrange for a sitter and get the weekend free, starting Friday (November 13th for a shindig at our home) night all the way through Sunday night (November 15th) (please double check this factor, so if she wins she can really come :) )

D. Most importantly, has a PASSION for photography

Nominate her TODAY! Since the workshop is around the corner, we must close nominations Sundaynight (this Sunday night at 6pm PST).

We will announce the winner by Tuesday next week so she has a little time to get things ready for the workshop. So make sure your nominations are all in by Sunday at 6pm PST.

*If you are not familiar with this contest, read below and see what it’s all about! Moms are one of the most beautiful parts of creation. This contest is all about acknowledging their beauty, even when they are Running on Empty.

Here is how it works!

In honor of how wonderful moms are and all that they do and give, Brian and I keep one spot reserved in every workshop for a special mom like YOU! That’s right, you (or she) will get a free pass to the upcoming CONFIDENCE Workshop in Seattle! (Please note, we don’t provide room/board and travel.)

To nominate a mom, you must post a comment telling us about the mom who you think deserves a big break in life! If you are a mom, you’re probably laughing because we ALL deserve a serious break. But the moms we’re looking for are the ones who have had a ridiculous amount of stress in their life whether from trauma or things just not going her way this year. She is a mom in your life that needs a serious blessing to come her way. She needs a serious surprise that gives her empty tank some fuel. If she is a woman that has miscarried, she is still a mom in my mind b/c I know her heart became a mother’s heart the moment she found out she was pregnant. Don’t hesitate to nominate her too.

I’m proud to say that our previous winners stepped out on a limb and nominated themselves. Take courage in them and feel free to nominate yourself if you know you need a serious break. Who knows, you may have your house remodeled by Oprah!

We’ll collect all the nominees, have a committee of wonderful moms vote, and then announce the winner next week!

Nominate her today and turn her day around! Oh, wait! Don’t forget to let her know you’ve nominated her too! If I was a mom nominated I’d love to know my friends were thinking of me whether I won or not! Deadline for ALL nominations is Sunday, November 8th at 6pm PST.

PLEASE NOTE:

Nominations must be posted as a comment on this blog post. Either your email or the nominees email MUST be included to qualify. Nominations emailed or posted on other blog posts may be overlooked. Please post all nominees here. Thanks!

For more details about the Seattle CONFIDENCE Photography Workshop, CLICK HERE!

p.s. Tune in tomorrow for a special feature with Edward Cullen. :)

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TWO NEW Photo Contests, TWO WAYS to WIN! Deadline is December 1st! To enter and WIN, read the details HERE!

Our Refuse to Say Cheese DVD series are now AWARD WINNING! Read the press release HERE ! If you haven’t ordered your own copy yet, check out our popular Instructional DVDs Refuse to Say Cheese and , and our 101 Kits for starting or expanding a business in photography, click on the titles of your choice!

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I love the Running on Empty contests. I love hearing all your stories. The strength so many of you carry with so much weight on your shoulders…it is dumbfounding and breathtaking all at once. Brian and I wish we could take all the nominees over the years, gather them all, put them on a plane, and fly them away to a weekend of pampering and restoration. Maybe someday. In the meantime, thank you for trusting us with your stories. Thank you for trusting us with your pain. Thank you for nominating those you love. Thank you for taking courage to nominate yourself.

As we prepare to head to the Minneapolis CONFIDENCE Workshop, I’d like to invite one more woman to join us. Her name is Jenifer Matthews, nominated by her friend Jacque Frank. When I got the votes in last night for Jenifer, I spent some time looking at Jenifer’s blog. I was in tears. This woman has a way with words after my own heart. She has gone through so much in her life. Jenifer…Brian (my Brian :) ) and I would like to invite you to take a weekend where you can exhale. Our arms are open, and for two days you don’t have to be strong. You just get to receive. And we get the incredible honor of pouring our hearts, our creativity and prayers into you. What a honor that is for us.

If Jacque or Jenifer could confirm her attendance by tonight, it would be much appreciated. Since we are days away, if for some reason the timing doesn’t work, we have a couple beautiful nominees who are runner ups. Just email Genie at genie@merakoh.com.

For those of you who didn’t read Jenifer’s nomination by Jacque, here it is. And if you can, check out Jenifer’s blog. It’s incredibly moving, painful, poetic and healing. The top post “Mommy, maybe I’ll start smoking” left me speechless.

My Name is Jacque Frank. My e-mail address is beingfrankphotography@gmail.com

I have been waiting for this contest since you announced you are coming to Minneapolis. I would love to nominate my friend Jenifer Matthews. Jenifer is a mom of 4 children. Jenifer’s oldest son has cerebral palsy. He is a true delight. He has shaped and formed their family in so many ways…they wouldn’t be the same without him. But a child with disabilities does bring so much more responsibility. This alone warrants a spot in your running on empty contest.

This past year has been particularly hard. Jenifer and her husband we pregnant with their fourth child. They found out at 20 weeks that they were going to have a boy. They named him Luke. Luke wasn’t growing very fast. Luke struggled to grow. In December Luke was born early and only lived 80 mins here on earth. He then went to live with his heavenly Father. Most of us cannot fathom the pain that Jenifer and her family have gone through. I would love it if Jenifer were to be the winner of the running on empty contest. Jenifer’s blog is http://3here1there.wordpress.com/ You can read her story there.

Jacque, words cannot express how awesome a friend is when they do what you have done for Jenifer. Thank you for taking time out of your busy day to introduce us all to Jenifer. We are all better for it. May you be blessed even more.

Much love, Me Ra

Please help me welcome Jenifer!

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Do you live on the West Coast? We are kicking off 2010 with a CONFIDENCE workshop in Seattle! The November Seattle CONFIDENCE Workshop is already sold out, but we have spots for the January Workshop! CLICK HERE to get your spot!!

Our Refuse to Say Cheese DVD series are now AWARD WINNING! Read the press release HERE ! If you haven’t ordered your own copy yet, check out our popular Instructional DVDs Refuse to Say Cheese and , and our 101 Kits for starting or expanding a business in photography, click on the titles of your choice!

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The weekend was a mix of resting, laughing and crying. My business coach has warned me several times about the aftermath I feel when a workshop has ended. I can’t help it. I’m a super emotional being, and when Brian and I spend the weekend pouring all our emotion and energy into the lovely, amazing women who attend our workshops–I usually have an emotional crash when it’s all said and done. I think touring the Smithsonian delayed this crash because boy, did it ever come.

But the toughest part is not the emotional crash. The toughest part is what I choose to believe in the moment. For instance, this weekend I did a handful of things to soak up “being home”. I rode my bike to the grocery store (and bought a bouquet of flowers for my basket just because). I took a nap in the middle of the day on Saturday. (I rarely nap.) I got the new homeschool curriculum organized. I was feeling good, even great at times. And then on Sunday later afternoon the tears came without warning. I slid down the fridge and just cried on the kitchen floor. No real reason. Just needed to cry. (anyone feel me out there?). I struggled with judging myself in that moment. ‘What a horrible mom I was being? How selfish? How this, How that. All things that don’t involve grace for myself. When in fact, tears are often a good sign for me, cleansing. But for some reason, I felt disappointment with myself.

I think I felt disappointment because I feel vulnerable these days–a little more vulnerable than I’m used to feeling. If you’ve read this blog for more than a week, you know that I’m pretty self disclosing. Heck, if you’re reading today’s blog you know that. But there are shifts in the air. Shifts in the weather, shifts in our family routine, shifts in our business-some bigger than I have had experience with. And the question that lurks behind all the shifts are “Will these shifts fail on us? Will we fail the shift? Will we come out on the other side fulfilled and glad we took the risks or feel the exact opposite?”

Aside from the shifts in the weather, I feel very invested in all the shifting around me. Brian and I put our heart into a creative family makeup where homeschooling, family life and traveling somehow work together (some days being better than others). We also put our heart into our dreams and our business. I have a dream ladies–a big dream. I want my own TV show. I want a show that reaches out to women and mixes photography and inspiration. I’ve even spent the last several weeks writing a 40 page TV Treatment proposal. It’s amazing how you find pockets of time on the airplane, or late at night when everyone is in bed, hammering the words out, hammering your dreams out–and how it all somehow energizes you.

I’m submitting the Treatment, putting the feelers out. And all this makes me feel naked in an open field. When you put your heart into anything, it seems the fear of failure only grows by the second. So what do you do? Where do you go when your aware of the fear more than the excitement? How do you escape the judge that sits on your shoulder, while you cry on the kitchen floor, telling you that your in no shape to ever have your own TV show?

I have a stack of books on my writing desk. They are a collection of my favorite authors over the years. Last night, I found myself going back to their words and their wisdom. I stumbled upon an excerpt that I thought you’d enjoy too. The book is called Circle of Quiet by Madeleine L’engle (author of A Wrinkle in Time). I had the privilege of taking a workshop from her. She has since passed away, and she will never know how much her honesty has impacted my life over the years. In this excerpt she writes about having her book The Lost Innocent rejected again;

“This (the rejection) seemed an obvious sign from heaven. I should stop trying to write. All during the decade of my thirties I went through spasms of guilt because I spent so much time writing, because I wasn’t like a good New England housewife and mother. When I scrubbed the kitchen floor, the family cheered. I couldn’t make a decent pie crust. I always managed to get something red in with the white laundry in the washing machine, so that everybody wore streaky pink underwear. And with all the hours I spent writing. I was still not pulling my own weight financially.

So the rejection on the my fortieth birthday seemed an unmistakable command: Stop this foolishness and learn to make cherry pie.

I covered the typewriter in a great gesture of renunciation. Then I walked around and around the room, bawling my head off. I was totally, unutterable miserable.

Suddenly I stopped, because I realized what my subconscious mind was doing while I was sobbing: my subconscious mind was busy working out a novel about failure.

I uncovered the typewriter. In my journal I recorded this moment of decision, for that’s what it was. I had to write. I had no choice in the matter. It was not up to me to say I would stop, because I could not. It didn’t matter how small or inadequate my talent. If I never had another book published, and it was very clear to me that this was a real possibility, I still had to go on writing.

I’m glad I made this decision in the moment of failure. It’s easy to say you’re a writer when things are going well. When the decision is made in the abyss, then it is quite clear that it is not one’s own decision at all.”

Madeleine L’engle knew she had to write. I know I am meant to dream big. Ever since I was little, despite the many pains of my childhood, I knew I was meant to shoot for what others might say is impossible. The tears on the kitchen floor don’t get to weigh in as evidence of this being true or not. The decision was made long ago in my own abyss. I just needed a tearful, cleansing reminder of it.

Thanks for reading today friends. Today I feel selfish because I feel like I’m using your listening ear to process this next step. Today I feel grateful for you listening. Does this resonate with any of you and the season of life that you are in?

xix, Me Ra

p.s. To all my Minneapolis women…counting the days! xix

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Tomorrow we will announce the beautiful Running on Empty Winner for the upcoming Minneapolis Workshop. Thank you so much for all your submissions.

Do you live on the West Coast? We are kicking off 2010 with a CONFIDENCE workshop in Seattle! The November Seattle CONFIDENCE Workshop is already sold out, but we have spots for the January Workshop! CLICK HERE to get your spot!!

Our Refuse to Say Cheese DVD series are now AWARD WINNING! Read the press release HERE ! If you haven’t ordered your own copy yet, check out our popular Instructional DVDs Refuse to Say Cheese and , and our 101 Kits for starting or expanding a business in photography, click on the titles of your choice!

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Our family had an amazing time in Washington DC this last seven days. You know the kids are loving it when they want to stay for another week, AND they have been in museums every day. I am blown away by how great of a job the Smithsonian has done for parents and kids. Not to mention, Night at the Museum 2: Battle of the Smithsonian. We visited everything from T-Rex to Amelia Earhart to Lincoln-stein. :)

Because of that movie, the kids knew EXACTLY where they wanted to go and what they wanted to see. It was awesome. We will definitely be coming back to DC again! Brian and I wanted to give all of you a quick thank you for the support you gave us in DC from tour suggestions to places to eat to places to take the kids to where to stay. All of you local DC people were amazing, and it made our trip that much richer. Thank you!

Our upcoming Minneapolis CONFIDENCE Photography Workshop is AROUND THE CORNER! The weekend is October 3rd and 4th (not this weekend but the NEXT!). Aside from the Running on Empty spot, we have a few spots left and then we will be full. We are so excited! In fact, the women have already started emailing the group their stories, why they are coming, what they hope to get out of the weekend, their fears, insecurities and enthusiasm. Brian and I are moved every time we hold these workshops. Whether these women live in Washington DC, Chicago, San Diego, Seattle or Minneapolis, they are excited and ready to take their creativity and photography skills to the next level. (Yes, they are nervous before the workshop, but they never let that nervousness stand in their way. And their courage brings beautiful results.)

Do you know a mom who needs this kind of group and weekend getaway? Do you know a mom Running on Empty? If so, nominate her today. Let’s turn her day around and let her know we are routing for her!

If you know a MOM who is;

A. Running on Empty

B. Lives near Minneapolis, or has mileage to spend, or lives by the seat of her pants and would book a plane ticket last minute

C. Can arrange for a sitter and get the weekend free, starting Friday (October 2nd for a possible shindig) night all the way through Sunday night (October 4th)

D. Most importantly, has a PASSION for photography

Nominate her TODAY! Since the workshop is around the corner, we must close nominations Sunday night (this Sunday night at 6pm PST).

We will announce the winner by Tuesday next week so she has a little time to get things ready for the workshop. So make sure your nominations are all in by Sunday at 6pm PST. If you are not familiar with this contest, read below and see what it’s all about! Moms are one of the most beautiful parts of creation. This contest is all about acknowledging their beauty, even when they are Running on Empty.

Here’s how it works!

In honor of how wonderful moms are and all that they do and give, Brian and I keep one spot reserved in every workshop for a special mom like YOU! That’s right, you (or she) will get a free pass to the upcoming CONFIDENCE Workshop in Minneapolis! (Please note, we don’t provide room/board and travel.)

To nominate a mom, you must post a comment telling us about the mom who you think deserves a big break in life! If you are a mom, you’re probably laughing because we ALL deserve a serious break. But the moms we’re looking for are the ones who have had a ridiculous amount of stress in their life whether from trauma or things just not going her way this year. She is a mom in your life that needs a serious blessing to come her way. She needs a serious surprise that gives her empty tank some fuel. If she is a woman that has miscarried, she is still a mom in my mind b/c I know her heart became a mother’s heart the moment she found out she was pregnant. Don’t hesitate to nominate her too.

I’m proud to say that our previous winners stepped out on a limb and nominated themselves. Take courage in them and feel free to nominate yourself if you know you need a serious break. Who knows, you may have your house remodeled by Oprah!

We’ll collect all the nominees, have a committee of wonderful moms vote, and then announce the winner next week!

Nominate her today and turn her day around! Oh, wait! Don’t forget to let her know you’ve nominated her too! If I was a mom nominated I’d love to know my friends were thinking of me whether I won or not! Deadline for ALL nominations is Sunday, September 27th at 6pm PST. Nominations must be posted as a comment on this blog post. Either your email or the nominees email MUST be included to qualify. Nominations emailed or posted on other blog posts may be overlooked. Please post all nominees here. Thanks!

For more details about the Minneapolis CONFIDENCE WORKSHOP, CLICK HERE!

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Do you live on the West Coast? We are kicking off 2010 with a CONFIDENCE workshop in Seattle! The November Seattle CONFIDENCE Workshop is already sold out, but we have spots for the January Workshop! CLICK HERE to get your spot!!

Our Refuse to Say Cheese DVD series are now AWARD WINNING! Read the press release HERE ! If you haven’t ordered your own copy yet, check out our popular Instructional DVDs Refuse to Say Cheese and , and our 101 Kits for starting or expanding a business in photography, click on the titles of your choice!

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Here we go friends! Part 2 from the CONFIDENCE Photography Workshop in Washington DC!

On the first day of our workshop, we bring in beautiful babies and mamas for a live-hands on Baby Photo Shoot. The purpose of the photo shoot is not only to get great baby photos but even more so, to practice specific framing techniques with specific camera settings and to stretch our wings when shooting indoors with imperfect lighting. We start with me doing a mini portrait shoot, walking through my thought process from “where is the best lighting to take these photos?” to “what kind of composition am I looking for?” I will take a few shots, talk about my settings, explain why I’m shooting the way I am, and then show the ladies what I’ve captured.

Photography Workshop for Women: CONFIDENCE Washington DC w/Me Ra Koh

This part of the workshop is always one of my favorites. I get my baby fix every time. And I’m sure I’m not the only one. :)

Photography Workshop for Women: CONFIDENCE Washington DC w/Me Ra Koh

This little one was so precious. I had mom get right up next to the window because the best source of light was coming from that specific window. We set baby Jane on a random ottoman that was found in the room. You can barely see me leaning over the couch to talk with mom.

Photography Workshop for Women: CONFIDENCE Washington DC w/Me Ra Koh

The green curtain behind mom is what caught my eye. Often I see a “shimmer” of an idea. I don’t necessarily know what I want as the final result, but I see something that catches my eye and find myself playing with it. The shimmer for this set up was the green curtain. How could we use that fantastic color with this precious baby? This is what the final result ended up being.

Photography Workshop for Women: CONFIDENCE Washington DC w/Me Ra Koh

This sweet thing traded places (again, next to the window for the best source of natural light), and look at how sweet she is! I love those eyes and her white bow. And mama…she is glowing. With the low f-stop, you would never guess we were in a hotel meeting room. That is what I LOVE about the low f-stops (buttery, blurry backgrounds!).

Photography Workshop for Women: CONFIDENCE Washington DC w/Me Ra Koh

This little guy had the best eyes too! And the single dimple made all the ladies swoon! Again, same window with the same great light.

Photography Workshop for Women: CONFIDENCE Washington DC w/Me Ra Koh

This guy was drooling up a storm. Mama kept wiping it away, but at one point we let it go. I LOVE the little drool, spit bubble! :)

Photography Workshop for Women: CONFIDENCE Washington DC w/Me Ra Koh

And this sweet thing is a miracle baby. He was a preemie-preemie. His mama told us he weighed a little over 1lb. when he was born. Isn’t that amazing. He’s doing so good now. And he especially loves his mama’s kisses.

Photography Workshop for Women: CONFIDENCE Washington DC w/Me Ra Koh

After I’m done modeling my style and approach, we break the women into groups to work with the babies on their own.

Photography Workshop for Women: CONFIDENCE Washington DC w/Me Ra Koh

As soon as the ladies send me their top favorites, I’ll be sure to post them here so you can see what magic came out of the first day! Brian and I had a chance to look over their shoulders and see what they were capturing. Wow, these women did an amazing job! I can’t wait for you to see for yourself!

Photography Workshop for Women: CONFIDENCE Washington DC w/Me Ra Koh

Tomorrow we are going to start the Running on Empty Contest for the Minneapolis Workshop that is coming up in two weeks! If you know a mom Running on Empty, consider nominating her tomorrow for the special spot we’ve saved with her name on it. More details to come tomorrow!

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We have only THREE spots left in the MINNEAPOLIS CONFIDENCE Workshop! The Minneapolis seats are the only spots left for a 2009 CONFIDENCE Workshop. To grab one, CLICK HERE !

Join us in SEATTLE for the upcoming CONFIDENCE Workshop! This is the first workshop of 2010! For details, CLICK HERE!

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Remember these beautiful Seattle Workshop ladies and the token man, Brian? ;) We joked about how this image demonstrates how the fear the Seattle Sistas felt when we started teaching them how to shoot in Manuel.

Seattle Photography Wkshp for Women, June 2009

Well my friends, it’s time to show you how well they shot during the workshop! I’m so excited. We’ve been meaning to do this post since June, but life got a little crazy this summer. Let’s not waste another second!

On the Saturday of the workshop, we had a handful of mamas come with their new babies. The Seattle Sistas (attendees :) ) were split up into groups of 3-5, and they were given different lighting situations to tackle with their assigned mama and baby. The focus of the practice shoot was to consider lighting and composition when shooting a mom and baby. What are the types of things we must be sensitive to with a new mom, when we consider composition specifically? This type of question and a bunch more are what we were tackling together.

On Sunday, we had a handful of families join us for a mock “family shoot”. One family had seven people! That was our beloved blog reader and friend, Kari Hale! She and Dave came with all five kids. I started our time by demonstrating different strategies I would use with a bigger sized family. And then the women were split up again and given their own assigned families to work with. One of the best parts for me was having Pascaline and Blaze participate for the first time. I felt like they were old enough to handle being one of the model families, and they did great (plus, we got some great images of the kids!).

The Seattle Sistas sent me some of their favorite results from both shoots to share with you! Some of them told me that they were holding their breath as they pushed the “SEND” button b/c the idea of having their images up here is terrifying. But I know that you will be the encouraging audience you always are! Thanks for helping me welcome the Seattle Sistas images!

First up is Katie. She took these beautiful images during the Baby Shoot on Saturday. She flew all the way from Washington DC to join us. What a pleasure to have her with us. Katie is so talented.

I just love how intimate this first one is–a precious moment between dad and baby.

Me Ra Koh Workshop Ladies Share Their Family Portraits!

And then look at the sweetness of this one! Doesn’t this image make you want to kiss baby Nathan to pieces!

Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop Results from Photo Shoots!

Katie, these two images are AMAZING! I love that you captured baby Nathan sucking on his mama’s finger b/c that is such a timely detail shot that shows us how old he is. Knowing that this time for baby Nathan is limited makes the image that much more significant. The color is also beautiful on both images. Fantastic job!

Tacey captured Valerie and baby Nathan from a completely different angle. Look at how sweet his eyes are.

Image Results from Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

And I love how tight Tacey got on this next one. We see just enough of mom’s smile to know that she adores this little guy and for this moment, he is her whole world.

Image Results from Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

You have to check out Tacey’s new blog. I loved getting to know this firecracker of a woman. Tacey had found our blog only a month before the workshop happened! She told me she had read three years of blog posts in that single month (giving her an amazing perspective on how this blog has transformed)! And now she is GOING FOR IT! So proud of you girl!

Erika had the opportunity to work with Marianne and her baby. Marianne came to our workshop a couple years ago, and it was WONDERFUL to have her back as a model with her precious baby. The first baby shot above is her husband. But look at this image Erika caught. I love so many elements of it. I love Marianne’s hair that falls over her face. I love how sweet this little guy’s face is cuddled next to his mama. I love how you can almost hear Marianne comfort him with soothing sounds. Wonderful Erika!

Image Results from Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

And one more! I can’t resist. I pulled this from Erika’s blog. :) It’s just beautiful! Same mom but hair down. Don’t you love it?!

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

During the Family Shoot on Sunday, one of the challenges was to capture moments that show the personality of the different family members. I’m thinking Erika nailed it on this shot! :)

Inspiring Image Results from Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Erika did a great job of using the Thirds Principle to frame this image. I love all the empty space on the other side of us. It brings more attention to Blazey’s face. And I love how Brian is standing there, thinking about his own things. You can totally tell this is a mama and Blazey dynamic. :) Erika, thank you! I love that you caught this moment! To see more of Erika’s work, visit her blog!

And if you want a window into Pascaline’s personality, Melanie did an AMAZING job of capturing the moment! This is totally my (superhero) daughter. :) Blaze idolizes Bruce Wayne (the hidden identity of Batman). I guess Bruce Wayne will rub his chin when he’s thinking, and thus, there you have it. Melanie, you caught them both in total character–and different characters! Way to go!

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Remember the tight black and white image that Tacey captured? Here is another perspective of that moment. I love that you can frame the same moment in so many different ways!

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

I love all the circular motion in the above image. Melanie, you did a great job of framing this image b/c mom’s arm looks good, her hands are gentle, baby’s tucked into her, and it gives you the feeling of him being in her womb–safe and surrounded by her love. Beautiful Melanie.

Jennifer Caplinger (yesterday’s Vacation Photo Contest winner!) captured this image of Valerie’s husband and baby Nathan the next day. I loved this image because of how Jennifer chose to frame it. Zane and Valerie are some of our dearest friends, and the expression on Zane’s face is classic. I can just hear him talking to baby Nathan. And then I love how Valerie and the girls are blurred in front. What a great composition!

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Here is another one of Jennifer’s images. Look at how she used composition in this image with a totally different focus.

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

She left us empty space on the right side and bottom corner. I feel like that little bit of empty space gives more motion and a rocking sense to the mama’s hands holding baby’s feet. Wonderful job Jennifer! Your composition for both images is so distinct! To see more of Jennifer’s work, check out her blog!

Kalli caught one of the sweetest images of my kids! I’m so excited to share this with you! I LOVE the expressions on both their faces. Totally their different personalities, and yet I love how this images shows us so many of their similarities from twinkly eyes to hair color. Thank you Kalli! What a gift you’ve given me and Brian!!!

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

And Kalli unknowingly gave all the women of the Discovery Workshop and last year’s Seattle Workshop another gift b/c guess who showed up to be a model! Our own sweet Jenny!

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Every time I look at this image that Kalli caught of Jenny, I think JOY! And Jenny’s smile is beautiful! Great job Kalli! We ALL thank you for capturing these priceless images of people we love!

Here is another image of Jenny’s little guy from a different perspective. There is a little movement in this image, and I think that softens the overall story of the image. I encouraged the women to not be quick to throw out blurry images that have moment or soft focus. Sometimes those images have a wealth of emotion that we miss b/c we’re so focused on finding the sharp images. Jennifer, thank you for sharing this image of Jenny’s little-big guy! :)

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Jennifer also captured this family image. This little guy has two big sisters to contend with, and yet his personality is so sweet. I love how Jennifer’s composition helped accentuate the relational dynamics with big sisters blurred in the background. Great storytelling Jennifer! What a moment!

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Speaking of little boys, Phillipa caught this great image of Dave with Ty. We were challenging the women to get out of the box with their framing and composition, and I think Phillipa reaped the rewards in this image! I love how powerful and solid dad looks with his son. I feel like the empty brick wall accentuates that strength. What do you think?

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Going to the other side, focusing on mama and baby, look at this little one’s FACE! It’s so precious! Another great image taken by Phillipa! For those of you who have had babies, can’t you taste the binky in your own mouth remembering those days? The image below is like a “time setter” where it shows us the story of the “time” of life they are in. One that feels so overwhelming when your the parent, and yet it ends so quickly. Thank you for noticing this precious dynamic Phillipa. Great work! Phillipa is GOING FOR IT with her photography! Check out her new blog!

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Here is Jenny’s sweetheart again! Look at those eyes! Erin Wheeler captured this magic!

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Erin’s husband Bill has a photography business, and Erin came to the workshop to build her confidence with the camera. She sent me the sweetest email and said;

I want you to know that, thanks to you and Brian, the camera doesn’t mock me from it’s lofty position on the table anymore – 5D and I are becoming better friends every day :)

I know exactly what she means. I remember starting out and feeling like my new DSLR smirked every time I walked by it. It took a while before I had the guts to show that camera who was boss. :) Erin, I’m so excited to see what images you continue to capture! You have an awesome eye. Bill is a lucky man to have you shooting alongside him! I mean look at this image below of our family! Did Erin capture ALL our different emotions responding to Brian’s jokes or what? :) Check out Erin and Bill’s portfolio and blog!

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Same crazy family, but a little more tamed and in color! :) The shot above and below were in the same five minutes that Brian and I jumped out of helping the small groups. The image below was captured by Jen Wills. I love how gentle we all look, at peace. Thank you Jen. I put these two images side by side b/c I love how dynamic the images from a family shoot can be–even within minutes of each other!

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

And here is Jenny’s sweet boy again! Look at those BLUE eyes! What grabbed me about this image is how Jen blurred out a blue element in the background. That blue element brings the blue out of his eyes even more. Don’t you think? Talk about creative and smart composition. Great job Jen!!

Okay ladies, if you think the image below is great than wait till you see Jen’s new website! OMG, the first image of Jenny and her baby are AWESOME!! (Jen, I’m so excited for you! And I love that this is all bringing such joy and life to you! yeah!)

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Melisa did a great job of capturing an image that makes you feel like your looking through a window into someone’s life. For instance, look at this moment she caught between Marianne and her husband. His arms are wrapped around them, and you feel like you are looking through a window seeing this sweet, unscripted family moment.

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Here is another one of Melisa’s images. What is more precious than a baby cooing at his mama? I know, not much! This image is another great example of how Melisa clipped in enough of Valerie to know that mama is there and what baby Nathan is looking at, but the image is still full of baby’s cooing. Melisa has started her own blog. Check it out!

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

These next two images were captured by Allison. The first image is so special. Look at this little guy’s pensive look. I can totally see mom and dad’s face in his expression. And I love how he seems totally at peace, resting in dad’s arms. Great job Alison.

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

This next one is so CLASSIC! I happen to know this little girl that Allison captured. She is a spirited little girl–full of confidence and personality. I love the energy that comes out of this image. Allison you captured the best expression on her face. You have no idea how much personality is in this smile you caught! Good job! Check out Allison’s new blog! (I can believe your doing it! And I’m so excited for you!)

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Here is another special example of capturing diverse images in the same couple minutes. Look at Allison’s image of baby above. Now look at Michelle’s image! What mom or dad could resist either? Even though the moment is within seconds, the look on his little face is totally different. Thanks so much Michelle for letting me use your image as an example of this! Great job!

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Michelle also caught my little guy in a defining moment. This is the kind of “defining” moment that shows the world why this little guy has me wrapped around his finger. Man, oh man! I love how he’s leaning back, elbows propped, and just chilling. Blazey knows my number in a way that puts Brian to shame! Classic example…I walk out of the bathroom in the morning, and Blaze looks at me from the bottom of the stairs and gasps, “Mama, you look so beautiful today.” …see what I mean! “WRAPPED”

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Michelle, thank you for being tuned to the moment and capturing this image of Blaze! I LOVE it! As you can see, it brings up all kinds of goosebumps in me! :) Check out Michelle’s website to see more of her work!

And speaking of having your parent wrapped around your finger…guess who has Zane wrapped around her finger? :)

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Totally! Melinda caught this image of Zane and Solenne. It’s priceless. Zane’s smile is great–relaxed and present. And Solenne, can you tell she is daddy’s girl? Oh boy! Melinda, I also love how you got rid of the background and let it become a soft blur. Sometimes we make the mistake of having background that distracts from the story in our image. But Melinda, you did a great job with keeping your framing tight enough for this one and the next one of Jenny.

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Again, the background is blurred and we are totally engaged with the subjects; Jenny and her little guy. I never noticed the blue ring Jenny was wearing. I like how you clipped that in. It adds a little to mom’s personality. In fact, I noticed mom’s beautiful highlights even more with the blue ring included. This isn’t any mom, this is a hip and fun mom! Good job Melinda! To see more of Melinda’s work, check out her website too! She has some great food and travel images to see!

Amy Little flew out from Utah at the last minute to jump in the workshop. It was wonderful to have her with us. (Amy, I loved our talk that night. Thank you.) She captured two beautiful images of Valerie and baby Nathan.

This first image feels so clean to me. I know “clean” is a funny word, but it’s clean, crisp, alive. The blacks are saturated well which adds the overall crispness, and I think it also helps the emotion become that much stronger. Plus, don’t you feel like you could just reach through your screen and feel his soft hair? I love the back of his head!

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Then Amy sent me something totally different from the first image. I like how she mixed it up. This reminds me of goals I have while doing a baby shoot. I love to get those super clean, crisp images. But I also love the stories in the type of image below; where mama is blurred out, the framing is tight, maybe there isn’t even a face, but emotion is still incredibly present.

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Look at those folds in his skin! Wonderful job Amy! To see more of Amy’s work with kids, check out her website!

And last but certainly NOT least, these next two images were taken by our Running on Empty Winner, Sarah. She flew in from Idaho last minute and was so ready to be there!

The first image is of Marianne and her baby. Look at how tight the framing is on this image. Doesn’t the tight frame make it feel that much more cozy and intimate. I love how Sarah clipped Marianne’s profile and sweet kiss, but her sleeping baby fills the frame. Sarah, you must have been standing real close to get this shot. But I’m not sure. What lens did you use? Do you remember? Was it the 50mm?

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

And if you ever wondered where Ty got his blue eyes from, wonder no longer! Sarah solved it for us in a magical way! Man, look at Ty’s expression! Isn’t that priceless! And Kari, good choice on having him wear a blue shirt. That made his eyes pop even more.

Inspiring Image Results from a Me Ra Koh Photography Workshop!

Sarah, you did a fantastic job with these images. Thank you for sharing! Thank you for getting on a plane last minute and blessing our group with your presence. I’m sure I speak for a lot of us when I say I LOVED laughing with you! (Wait, you drove didn’t you?! Weren’t you the one sitting outside my house on the night of the Meet and Greet?! :) ) To see more of Sarah’s work, visit her website!

To my beautiful Seattle Sistas,

I know some of you were terrified of sharing your images on the blog, but I’m proud of you for sending me your work!

I’m sure you’ll see from today’s comments that I’m not the only one who thinks you did a FANTASTIC job!

xoxo, Me Ra

To all my blog readers, if you have time, leave a comment today and tell these ladies they had NOTHING to be nervous about. Isn’t their work AMAZING! And keep in mind, we didn’t give them perfect, ideal photo situations with lighting. What on earth would they learn if we did! :)

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Want to join us for an upcoming CONFIDENCE workshop? We have a workshop in October that will be in Minneapolis! I don’t think we’ll be able to make it to the East until next Fall, so if you are near Minneapolis or on the East Coast :) , come join us! If you register before August 31st, you get 20% off!! To find out more details and get yourself a spot, CLICK HERE!

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Winner Wedsnday!

Today is the day we announce a handful of winners! You might be one of them!

Let’s start with the Vacation Photo Contest! The winner is Jennifer Caplinger’s image; Welcoming Grandma and Grandpa!!

Winner of Me Ra Koh Photography Contest

Jennifer, I know that ALL your Seattle Sistas are freaking out right now! I’m so proud of you for taking a deep breath and pushing the SEND button! You have an incredible eye, and I love that your not just hearing it from me but hundreds of voters! A BIG HUG girl!!! Click on JENNIFER to see her blog!

I want to thank all the TOP FIVE Finalists for submitting your work. I can’t tell you how many emails I got telling me how inspired people were by your images. Not only did people vote, but they emailed me too b/c they loved seeing your creative eye! So thank you for risking yourselves and sharing so much of you with all of us. It has been a honor to host your powerful, wonderful images.

WINNER #2

The next winner is the Random Voter Award! Okay, I know we didn’t make our goal of 750 votes. We almost made 600, and the other thing, is we collected MORE votes than we ever have for a photo contest. I could FEEL all of you trying so hard to get the vote count up there. And even though we didn’t make the 750 count, I still think we all deserve to give the Sony Cybershot Camera away. Don’t you!! I read your comments on the Top Five Finalists, and I’m so proud to be a part of such a great community. I think we all deserve to give that camera away! GIVE THAT CAMERA AWAY! :)

Sony Cybershot, Me Ra Koh Photo Contest prize

The lucky Random Voter who gets the Sony Cybershot camera is….Colleen! This was her vote;

on 10 Aug 2009 at 1:55 pm

Me Ra, You do an incredible job of choosing finalists…the top 5 always take my breath away…I can’t imagine how you go through them all and choose, nevertheless, I LOVE your choices…

I think this contest is the hardest for me to choose though…I like little things about each one…#1 tells such a story #2 just makes you want to stare at it all day #3 makes me laugh out loud #4 makes me cry and #5 gets me all hot and sticky!!

My choice this time is #2 though…it’s one I want to enlarge and put on my wall it’s just sooooo beautiful!

Good luck to you all!!!

    And the fun doesn’t end! Colleen has a great blog that I checked out! Take a look! Colleen, thank you for VOTING!! Girl, you won the Sony Cybershot camera! Email us your shipping address at gina@merakoh.com, and Gina will tie a ribbon around it and ship it off this week!

    WINNER #3

    The last winner is for the Washington DC, Running On Empty Contest! As many of you know, we save ONE spot in every workshop for a mom Running On Empty. Every workshop, we invite people to nominate their friends, wives, sisters, daughters, themselves. The winner is given the last seat to the workshop at no expense. Brian and I don’t pick the winner. This would be way to hard. Instead, we host the opportunity. The winner is often picked by former winners, and or a group of select women. Without further delay, the winner to the upcoming DC workshop is AILEEN REILLY!

    Below is Aileen’s heartfelt submission;

    My favorite part of photography is the honesty – the raw emotions, the unguarded glances, the moments. I’m an observer. I see life in pictures – a snapshot here, a snapshot there. I have been carrying a camera for as long as I can remember, at least since I was 10, and that gives me 30 years of capturing life. Photography is my passion. It is something I have always done, and like life once you have children, I can’t truly recall a time when I didn’t have a camera. It is just what I do. I am an artist and a photographer. People invite me into their homes and to their special occasions, to see their lives, to peer into their eyes and to see a part of their souls. The least I can do is share a part of myself as well.

    I grew up without knowing my father. When I was six, he signed off on having any legal rights to me as a father. With the stroke of a judge’s pen, I was fatherless. To a little girl, this was the ultimate rejection. But I’m a survivor, and life goes on. I grew up and went on to graduate from law school. I took a job as a criminal prosecutor, my dream job. I love criminal law. Much like photography and capturing raw moments, in criminal law I was able to see humanity from one extreme to another. Eventually I settled into the S * x u a l Assault Unit – r a p e cases, i n c 3 s t, domestic violence r a p e, etc. The work was emotionally challenging, but there is no greater satisfaction than providing a moment of justice for a rape survivor. I treasure every “Thank You,” and every survivor remains in my heart to this day.

    Two years ago (ten years after my job as a criminal prosecutor ended), my mom told me that my father never knew his father either (father-issues are a continuing theme in my life). His mother (my grandmother) was raped by a stranger in the park at the age of 16. She chose to keep the baby (my father). The rapist was never captured. I never knew any of this. That rapist’s granddaughter grew up to prosecute rapists. Imagine that. Fate, Divine Providence, Karma – call it what you will. It is that same fate that I believe has brought your wonderful conference to DC at a time when I need it the most.

    I left my job as a criminal prosecutor and went on to have children. I now have four – three girls (9, 8, and 6) and one boy (2 ½). I gave up my law career, and I stay home full time with them, struggling to ground them spiritually, to educate them, and at the same time, trying not to lose myself in the process

    At New Years this year, I made myself a list. Not a resolution list – I don’t really do those. Rather, it was a list of four specific areas of my life I wanted to focus on and my goals for each of those areas. Of course, photography was one of those areas. My goals are to continue developing my skills, take the camera off “auto,” study and teach myself exposure, lighting, proper composition, reading histograms, with an eye toward 2010 when I plan to go pro with my skills. In my notes, I listed “MeRa Workshop – 2010?” I’m in Washington, DC (though formerly I lived in Seattle) and I knew that to attend one of your West Coast workshops would be a great expense to us, but also a great creative opportunity for me. I wanted to plan for it.

    Unfortunately, shortly after writing my list of goals, unemployment hit our family. My husband lost his job, along with too many in the rest of our country. Our situation is not unique, and I know this. I can look back and see what happened, but I didn’t realize while I was in the throes. As my husband worked wholeheartedly to find a new job, he needed constant access to our laptop. However, the laptop was also the valve for my creativity. That’s where my writing was done, that’s where I viewed all the photos I’d taken and where I edited them, that’s where I wrote my blog, that’s where I posted photos for others to see and to receive feedback. As a SAHM, too often, that’s where I interacted with other adults.

    Slowly, I stopped picking up my camera. It was not a conscious decision, it just happened. I stopped writing. For someone whose camera is virtually a third arm, this was debilitating. I would look at my camera and think about picking her up, but I didn’t see the point. She became unknown to me, a relationship that had lost its communication and I didn’t know how to bridge that gap. My creative energy suffered, and I suffered. Looking back, I can see I was slowly losing part of myself.

    And then an angel appeared. Circumstances put me in touch with an acquaintance with a similar love of photography. This acquaintance would not have been made otherwise; I have no doubt that it was destined to occur. An angel saw me suffering and wanted to put me back on the right track. It worked. I saw my acquaintance (now friend) taking great photos and wanted to share my work too. It reminded me that I take great photos too. Slowly, I picked up my camera again. I started shooting in full manual and I was back on track. I started staying up very late so I could view my photos and so I could go back to interacting with my on-line photog community. I was rejuvenated. I was breathing again, and I realized how essential photography is to my life – to me being me.

    And then, the unbelievable happened. On June 17th, you announced your next workshop would be in Washington, DC. Imagine! My stars were aligning. On that very same day, my husband received a job offer. No kidding. It was destiny. Can it get any better? I’m going! Yay! But, reality set in – We are a family of six who has been living without income for 7 months. We have exhausted our savings. We have used credit cards in circumstances we normally would not have. We have borrowed from family. And then borrowed more. Is that possible? I am so grateful we have such a generous and giving extended family. Without them, we would have been out on the streets, but it may take years to repay.

    Reality set in: No, I would not be attending MeRa’s Workshop. That day, I cried. A lot. I don’t know what got into me, because I’m not really a crier. I’ve been through a lot in my life, and I think I’ve just learned to stop it all up. But that day, I cried. I hid my tears from my family. I took two showers that day so I could be alone with the tears streaming down my face.

    MeRa, I am Running on Empty. I feel beaten down and exhausted. This year has pushed and stretched me in ways I could not have foreseen. Sometimes I feel like I’m crawling out of my skin. It’s hard for me to admit this. There is a part of me that thinks, It’s life; you get through. I’ve always gotten through. But, this time, I’m asking for help. I’ve been taking care of others for 10 years now. I need a break before I find myself broken again, losing myself. I need that weekend – the skills, the encouragement, the confidence-building, the time to myself. And just as that rapist’s granddaughter grew up to prosecute rapists, I believe that fate has sent you to my door for a reason.

    Thank you for considering me for the Running On Empty gift. I know every mom nominated is worthy. Thank you for considering me.

    Aileen
    6reillys (at) gmail (dot) com
    PS. I have to apologize for the multiple submissions if they ever post – I believe it was the words describing my prosecution background that got caught up in the spam filter.

    Aileen, Brian and I are excited to meet you. What a honor to have you join the DC group. You have not given up, and I’m so excited for you to come and be refreshed, inspired and discover a new support group. We are counting the days!

    Please join me in congratulating this beautiful woman, along with the other contest winners!

    And the BIGGEST thank you to all our blog readers. I hope you never underestimate how much I appreciate you and your involvement on this blog. Your contributions, comments, emails to me, all of it, makes this blog what it is.

    xoxo, Me Ra

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    Here are the DVDs Michelle Riddle referred to in her interview yesterday! Our DVDs recently won the GOLD award from NAPPA! Check them out and have a BLAST! Refuse to Say Cheese and , plus our 101 Kits for starting or expanding a business in photography, click on the titles of your choice

    We still spots open in our upcoming October Minneapolis Workshop! The Minneapolis Workshop is off to a FANTASTIC start! In the first 24 hrs. we were almost half full! I can’t wait to meet these beautiful women! Want to join us? If you register before August 31st, you get 20% off!! To find out more details and get yourself a spot, CLICK HERE!